Tuesday, October 31, 2006 @10:39 AM
obsessive-compulsive disorder(ocd): is a psychiatric disorder or rather an anxiety disorder. it is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive, distressing, intrusive thoughts and related compulsions which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
i have decided to blog something about this disorder of mine, hoping by penning it down, i am able to cure it, cause i would like to think if i understand and know certain compulsive disorder of mine, i am able to vanish it. i know that there are many people out there who have this disorder, well just a fellow warning, if by chance that any of this disorder may disgust you out, please leave.
so after researching on this disorder, i have found that the following are my disorders:
1.wanting to wash my hand all time because i feel it is dirty.
-actually i think this happens to everyone, not only myself but many others.
2. occasionally i would want certain items to be place straight and crooked all where i feel like it.
-this is a horrible terrible disorder and occasionally gets rather irritating.
3. i hate it when i throw litter on the floor, or when i miss the rubbish suit and the litter gets on the floor. i will have to pick it up which will lead back to the first disorder where i will find that my hands are dirty and have to wash them.
-i think this is good for the environment actually.
4. sometimes, i feel the need to repeat my words until i want like it the way it is phrase.
-this get me and the other party irritated.
5. i hate loud noises, and when i hear them, i feel the need to soften them.
-this happens a lot around a stereo where i have to keep on adjusting the volume of it.
6. when i'm in class, and sitting on a chair, i will feel the need to move my chair to a certain place where the chair will be straight.
-this gets annoying cause my chair never feels it is straight and when i move the chair, sometimes it gives a screeching sound which annoys the hell of me cause i have ocd of noises.
7. not being able to stand my white finger nails. everytime i see a white colour fingernail which is poping up from my fingers, i have to cut it.
-this is rather good for school. never got caught by my teachers for having long fingernails.
8. brushing my teeth until my gums bleed.
-okay i admit it, this is a horrible compulsive disorder. it is probably one i would like to cure. the reason for this it's cause only when my gums bleed do i feel that my teeth is clean. it only started when my gums start bleeding.
oh god, let me cure this disorder.
okay, that's about it. anymore and i'll pen it down in another entry or so. the only cure for this now (which is by the way it hasn't gotten me a stage where it is rather bad) is, believe it or not: my laziness.
amazing huh?
obsessive compulsive disorder
how irritating can it be?
i wish it would just disappear
so that i can just be me.
its a syndrom
which cease to decrease
medication
oh what if it increase?
a fear causes it
education enlightens it
knowing about it
means understanding it
have a grasp of knowledge
hoping for a cure
momentarily it will be gone
but soon not for long
an irritating disorder it is
it works in the mind
psychologically it will find
the need to rest in mine
'obsessive compulsive disorder (ocd)'
tagged replies:
Briana: oh man, enough. haha, this poems are just a form of my feelings.
DarkSR: nothing to tag don't tag. =x
Clare: haha, thanks!